People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. When you figure out which it is, you know exactly what to do.
I cherish those moments of pleasure and pain.They changed me and I will never be the same.
Sometimes we come in contact with individuals in our lives that change our perception of the world.
Sometimes their energy is so strong that it is hard to adapt and break old ways of thought and behavior fast enough.
Yet you know that when these people are not in our lives there is an emptiness that resides in our gut.
Right there. It’s an interesting perplexing feeling. It is not a pain you cannot bear, yet it is a pain you would rather not have because it does hurt.
Sometimes you find a woman that just fills you and makes you complete in a Jerry McGuire kind of way. Their energy is so strong and so intense that it can only be described as the type of “high” likely to be felt by doing drugs. Euphoric.
I cannot begin to put into words the pleasure you can feel. And the pain. Enjoy the moment. Relive the moment. Over and over again.
New standards are set for love and appreciation. Perhaps noone will ever meet these standards again. Perhaps they will.
One can only hope that we gave near as much as they gave. That they felt you as much as you felt them. That they knew you cared. And not just like a caring that passes, but the caring that lasts.
This is the kind of woman that your family and friends will ask about all the time. And you will not have the heart to tell them that you are not a couple anymore. The last thing I want to do is break their heart. That’s deep.
One can’t help but wonder if they know that they will forever influence their thoughts and actions. Although in years to come it may be harder to pinpoint the origin of them. Or perhaps not. Perhaps you will always remember even when your memory fails you.
Because the body never forgets.
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It has been a year since I first made a comment to your blog. I have been following your blog and have seen you become a better man almost before my eyes. Since my first comment there has been many changes in my life, I have since divorced, (guess I figured out how much crap was too much crap) and I have found myself and am learning to love myself. My kids are my life, and when my oldest said “When daddy isn’t here, I like the way you smile at me” I knew that I had made a good decision. It wasn’t fair to them that I was just going through the motions. They now have their dad more involved in their life. They see their mom happy because of them, and not just faking for them. I still count my blessings and one main blessing is the love and support I had from my family and friends. My best friend, did everything in his power to make me look in the mirror and see the person others were seeing. It took a while, but I can now look in the mirror and smile at myself. I do not hate my past, I learned from it. It made me into the person I am today. I believe people come into my life for a reason. I also believe that if you really truly love a person, you never stop loving. I am not in love with my ex husband, but I do love him, even if he doesn’t think it can be possible. I know my heart and I know my gut. I follow my gut and my heart always does as it pleases. My heart will always hold a place for the people I love, with or without their consent. I always hold on to my loved ones every word, and I do not fear my memory failing…because just like you said that the body never forgets, I know that my heart will never let me forget.
*chingos,
Blanca
I always look forward to reading your words.
It seems like we have grown so much in a year. Or rather, it is obvious that we have grown so much in this past year. To look back at precious posts and comments just brings it all to light.
Words fail me.
To our growth,
*chingos indeed